mason has turned five and jeff was away while he had his birthday but he was back for his birthday party jeff went to bmw school in vancouver for 2 weeks .. i thought it was going to be ahrd but god dammit if i can pack a house while he is gone for a month while dealing with mason and logan and still child minding i can handle 2 weeks its amusing when some friends or i hear of people who have hubbies away and they cant manage but maybe its not for everyone maybe being a single mom for some years gave me the upper hand that as a single parent you have to be and do everything regardless of if you want to or not when you have aprtner or hubby its really easy to let things slide or say i guess he can do that ..
mason is going to be sad he has made some great friends in this little green we live on.. and they are moving there are 2 families moving away mason has gotten really close to one of them and loves to play with all the kiddies even the baby as he says...
the preschoool group that mason is part of finishes this may its been good he has had a good idea of what kindy may be like .. i still cant believe he is going to be in kindergarten this year i swear to god i am taking the time that he is not here and am going to enjoy it ..i deserve it
i realized i must say oh god alot becuase while grandma and grandpa was here every second word out of mason mouth was oh god this and that...jeff and i dont care we are not religious that is about as religious as we get aside from my new age stuff that i am liking lately spirits, ghosts, guides, the weird stuff i am just weird and silly but thats how all my friend sand family love me just that way
calgary is getting to me a little.. i need to get out there and make some friends for me and jeff so we can do some couple dates or gatherings with kids as well just some fun...i am missing all my wonderful strange and eclectic friedns we had in victoria..we all had so many differences yet we all got along well and enjoyed each others company.. oh how i miss them and the gatherings and wine drinking... i have not had a drink of wine in the longest time i got a bottle of wine from a dear friends for xmas 2 years ago and i finally drank it at easter ..how sad is that coming form the wine loving lady lol... calgary has converted me to conservatisim.. hahahahah ok i should be careful i may get struck by lighting if i stand outside for saying that
calgary is great so much to do we have had fun adventures on the ctrain and bus
logan has been diagnosed with adhd combined type at first i was sad but i am over that now it is what it is its not my fault i have done everything i can for him and as the doctors said i have done good he has some wonderful habits and thats why he scored high on some tests he does have a learning and language and comprehension disabilty as well..he will need help and smaller course loads to finish school
we are trying a drug trial for him its scarey beauce adhd drugs are amphetamines like hello why dont i just gibe some speed or soemthing i have a problem with it i cried the first day he took his meds becuase i felt guilty we say drugs are bad and that yet here we are giving them to them its weird and strange and i am sure i will get over taht as well parent guilt can be so hard..