been way to long

its been forever since i last wrote to this blog.. life is crazy beaing a football mom and team rep is very busy busy busy... i have to call all the parents and tell them when they have volunteer duty anbd basically they are shit out of luck if they want to change they have to find another parent to change with not that easy..

logan is loving it he cut his long locks all off to be short again i was getting so used to his long locks...

mason has turned five and jeff was away while he had his birthday but he was back for his birthday party jeff went to bmw school in vancouver for 2 weeks .. i thought it was going to be ahrd but god dammit if i can pack a house while he is gone for a month while dealing with mason and logan and still child minding i can handle 2 weeks its amusing when some friends or i hear of people who have hubbies away and they cant manage but maybe its not for everyone maybe being a single mom for some years gave me the upper hand that as a single parent you have to be and do everything regardless of if you want to or not when you have aprtner or hubby its really easy to let things slide or say i guess he can do that ..

mason is going to be sad he has made some great friends in this little green we live on.. and they are moving there are 2 families moving away mason has gotten really close to one of them and loves to play with all the kiddies even the baby as he says...

the preschoool group that mason is part of finishes this may its been good he has had a good idea of what kindy may be like .. i still cant believe he is going to be in kindergarten this year i swear to god i am taking the time that he is not here and am going to enjoy it ..i deserve it

i realized i must say oh god alot becuase while grandma and grandpa was here every second word out of mason mouth was oh god this and that...jeff and i dont care we are not religious that is about as religious as we get aside from my new age stuff that i am liking lately spirits, ghosts, guides, the weird stuff i am just weird and silly but thats how all my friend sand family love me just that way

calgary is getting to me a little.. i need to get out there and make some friends for me and jeff so we can do some couple dates or gatherings with kids as well just some fun...i am missing all my wonderful strange and eclectic friedns we had in victoria..we all had so many differences yet we all got along well and enjoyed each others company.. oh how i miss them and the gatherings and wine drinking... i have not had a drink of wine in the longest time i got a bottle of wine from a dear friends for xmas 2 years ago and i finally drank it at easter ..how sad is that coming form the wine loving lady lol... calgary has converted me to conservatisim.. hahahahah ok i should be careful i may get struck by lighting if i stand outside for saying that

calgary is great so much to do we have had fun adventures on the ctrain and bus

logan has been diagnosed with adhd combined type at first i was sad but i am over that now it is what it is its not my fault i have done everything i can for him and as the doctors said i have done good he has some wonderful habits and thats why he scored high on some tests he does have a learning and language and comprehension disabilty as well..he will need help and smaller course loads to finish school

we are trying a drug trial for him its scarey beauce adhd drugs are amphetamines like hello why dont i just gibe some speed or soemthing i have a problem with it i cried the first day he took his meds becuase i felt guilty we say drugs are bad and that yet here we are giving them to them its weird and strange and i am sure i will get over taht as well parent guilt can be so hard..

so its been awhile since i last posted in this blog life has been rather hectic and to be honest i am just really getting into the blogging and realy it doesnt have to be everyday i dont think..

so lets see since march whats happened..mason has turned 4 oh boy ..Logan joined football.. and loved it .. and is really good at it..we went away to victoria for a week vacay in the sumer it was good..but really to sum up the last 6 months is rather difficult so to begin all fresh

its november already.. i cant believe its liek 29 days till the big man comes ......xmas lists have begun.. shopping is started.. i completed a rather wonderful thing this year i made all my cards and we already made 2 different crafts to mail away to all our dear friends and family

was shopping for mason and he really wanted this polly pocket thing and we chatted about it and i really dont care boy or girl toy whats the difference..he is 4 and why is it cool for agirl to be a tom boy and play with boy stuff but yet when a boy wants to play with girl stuff god forbid he could turn gay or something .. i love my children and they have one life if he wants fairy princess stuff so be it he damm well will get it....i dont see why we have to say no thats girly or no tahst for boys let them be kids soon enough they will learn all about that on there own

jeff and logan will participate in the grey cup stuff this weekend they will volunteer wed, thurs, fri from 5-10 and then saturday 2-10 and sunday 1-9 poor guys are going to be spent and wiped out ..but what a wonderful experience

well the boys called there on the way home time to make some soup and coffee write again soon

mason is 4

well i cant believe it but mason has turned 4..i am starting to feel old... ok maybe not..he had a small little party with some friends of his in the neighbourhood..he wanted to invite all his friends from his old house.. ohh how he misses them all.. ok well so do jeff and i.. we miss the life long friendships that we made..and the get together and jeff misses his walks and the conversations... but he gets vacation time soon... as of may so we are trying to plan a week to go back to Victoria...now that gets me excited..

ok back to mason..his party was great it was transformer themed ..and the cake well i did not find a transformer one so he had hot wheels cake which he loved..he enjoyed it.. i did a shamrock craft with the kids and they played had some cake , cheesy and peanut butter and jam Sammie's at masons request.. and we did pinata.. fun was had by all..

then after a tuckered mason went to bed we did the traditional balloon filing his room after 140 balloons later ..it looked wonderful he woke up and all we heard was what the ..hello anyone there..it was funny he has turned into a little funny man ..we brought all the balloons down from his room and put them at our front door and took pictures and then we took skewers and popped them all .. OK fun was had by mason, Logan, mommy and daddy we can all be big kids at heart

march already

so it seems that when you talk honestly with your child it doesn't always go well.. so Logan asks me how old i was when i had sex for the first time.. i tell him well 14 with my first long term b/f who i happened to date for 3 years..so it was all good i explained the being in love feelings and all that stuff that goes along with being or feeling ready and peer pressure..
then he says mom that's kind if sluttish ..my eyes bogged out of my head did my son just say that word..so it seems the double standard still fits so if a girl has sex she is slutty if Boy has sex he is cool.. i had to explain that that usually applies to more than one partner and that.. so in the end i was not sluttish i was a responsible teenager in my sons eyes..

ahhhh it was hard to hear that but it was nice to explain feelings and double standards and all that stuff.. i am hoping with being so open and honest he doesn't ever think sex is dirty or wrong and is open to all that it entails with love and intimacy and he is comfortable with himself and that

sex can and is a wonderful thing if used wisely..hahaha that was funny

valentine heart shaped sugar cubes


1 cup sugar
2 tsp cold water
Optional: Red Wilton 'Color Mist' (food coloring spray)
Plastic or Silicon heart-shaped mould
Directions: In a small bowl, blend the water with the sugar to form a 'wet sand' consistency. Lightly mist the mixture with the red food coloring spray and then re-blend the mixture to create a pale pink sugar. Fill the moulds with the mixture and press down with fingers or spatula. Invert sugar shapes onto a parchment-lined cookie sheet and allow to dry overnight. Voila!

i got this from a blog and acquaintance from victoria ty M hope you dont mind that i borrowed this

its sunday

why are weekends so damn busy .. there never seems to be enough time in a day or weekend for that matter..
did the typical laundry, clean ,groceries, and started to get stuff for masons 4 th bday party..we scored on transformers stuff at zellers was 70 percent off.. a pack of 8 loot bags for 60 cents.. i think the poor cashier thought i was crazy..i said 70 percent off no way i will be back need to get more at the end of it all for 25 smackeroos i got, invitations, loot bags, hats, table cloth, napkins, cups, plates, bday banner, bowls for the loot bag, some stickers and some all spark .. i was a happy camper and we even went to toysrus and got his birthday presents..i feel so on the bawl

i was reading a blog today and now i want to try to make heart shaped sugar cubes for love day this coming Saturday.. i love valentines day and hearts and anything mushy and lovey dovey yes i can be a sap.. i never get tired of saying i love you to my hubby, kids, friends and family.. i should of been born in the 60s .. peace and love man

i am hoping to be on the ball this week and do something valentines to count down the days to love day ..we have no major plans for love day..staying home with the kids making a heart shaped cake and something for dinner and of course heart shaped pancakes ..

ok the rambling for sunday will end now happy sunday

teenagers

so it seems teenagers don't talk much..i miss my talkative Logan..he used to talk all the time about everything or anything.. now he grunts..or just looks at you doesn't smile show any emotion..and spends most of his time in his room..
and when he does want to talk its trying for shock value...he doesn't seem to think or remember hey his parents used to be teenagers... shock value been there done that..i think mine was asking my mother what it taste likes to swallow ..yes that was years and years ago..but at that time i just wanted to embarrass my mother..yes typical teenage girl behaviour..

now boys are so much more different..i was so worried thinking we just moved here he had to leave friends..he is a depressed funk.. he will get out of it.. looked on line for info on teens and depression.. yes he has no signs of it even took him to the doctor to do some blood work to make sure he didn't have anemia or anything..but i guess in the end this is just my Logan..this to shall pass and he will grow out of it.. his grade 6 principal said it best they are aliens until about 18 then they do come back to you.. nice to hear at a elementary graduation..

i have to just except he is doing what most teens do try to separate from parents and enjoy the times when we do play a game or dance around the house listening to music..its hard i had wanted to be this cool down to earth parent that my kids loved to go and talk to and hang out with ..i will hold on to the memories i have and wait for the alien to leave his body